No Drinks Since the Weekend

I have been super busy since Monday morning so I have not been drinking. The busier I stay the less I drink. I have a lot of energy and stay as busy as I can but a girl's gotta rest sometimes. And when I spend several hours in front of the TV...that is when I drink. Hopefully I can go the rest of the week without booze but even without it I am not sleeping that well...I wake up a lot with nightmares.

No, I Have Not Been Going to Meetings

In response to Dave who left a comment on my previous post.....As I think I mentioned in my first post on this blog I am just trying to quietly give up drinking without making a big deal about it. I don't want to go to public meetings so that a bunch of strangers can find out about my issues. Also, I am afraid that if I make a public declaration it will be even harder for me to give up drinking -- every time I have ever told my friends "I am on a diet" the next thing I know I am craving all kinds of fatty foods. When I have dieted successfully I have just quietly made changes in my diet without involving anyone else.

I have been trying to apply the same principle to giving up booze. Now I will grant you that it hasn't been going all that great since I seem to continue to drink several evenings a week -- but I am not drinking to excess either. I am going to continue my plan for awhile and see if I can actually give up drinking without involving a bunch of strangers...that is why I went to such pains to be anonymous on this blog. I really don't want anyone to know who I am. It takes me a very long time to trust people and to make meaningful friendships so I don't think that meetings with strangers will be all that helpful to me.

Day 37

Sobriety isn't working out so well so far. Maybe next week I can really clean up. For now all I can say is that I have been drinking frequently but not to excess. Still not good.