Feeling Better

Thanks to Ann, Molly, and Beth for your comments yesterday. You really made me feel better. And, yes, it is insanity to do the same thing over and over and expect a different result. That is right.

With no booze in my system I was feeling much better and hyper productive today. My husband isn't home until Thursday and when he is not home I take advantage of the situation and do the kind of heavy cleaning and reorganizing that is easier to do alone and without commentary of others. I am really enjoying the peace and quiet of being alone in my house. When my husband is around 24-7 it really is too much togetherness. I like the silence and not having to constantly answer silly questions like, "what are you doing?" or, "Hi honey I see you are petting the cat". Silly commentary that people think they have to engage in sometimes rather than just not speaking at all.

I worked out today and look forward to a hopefully great workout tomorrow. Busy day tomorrow...some writing I have been putting off plus lunch with one friend and dinner with another. Should keep me busy and out of trouble (booze-trouble that is).

Thank you all so much for your friendship, support, and kind comments. It is so helpful to me...more than I would have thought it would be. I tend to be the kind of person who deals with touchy personal issues on her own. I am a big believer in self discipline and the power of mind over matter and this alcohol issue is so hard for me because basically I think that I have been displaying a disturbing lack of self-discipline which makes me so angry with myself. So, your supportive comments are helpful and its also constructive to hear how some of you have felt when you did some of the same things I have found myself doing like drinking too much and being hungover and unhappy. Your kindness is appreciated my friends.