Deleted the last post

I deleted my last post because it occurred to me (I am being over careful here) that someone who knows me could potentially identify me because of my pet photos. Highly unlikely but since I want to remain anonymous I took the post and photos down just to be safe. I think all my blogger friends saw the photos of my babies anyway.

Things are good. Drank very little over the weekend which is a huge change for me and a step in the right direction. The week is busy so far and the busier I am the less I drink so wish me luck as I try not to drink at all this week!

Napa Was Good

Well the trip went fine. We arrived, exhausted, on Thursday night. It's a very long trip to Napa from our home. I crawled into bed and went to sleep. My husband drank a little wine to kick off the trip but I didn't cave and have any. The next day we drove around to wineries and I did a little tasting but didn't overdo it. Unfortunately on Friday night we got some wine and room service and I had too much to drink so I didn't sleep well. I was so mad at myself. A little confused too because I tried so hard to pace myself.

Saturday and Sunday were much better. I started just sharing my husband's tasting flights and I didn't get drunk at all. On Sunday some friends of ours drove up from San Francisco to go to April in Carneros with us -- we must have visited 10 wineries. I got to where I didn't even taste all the wines and I was so proud of myself. I was even the designated driver on Saturday night when we drove about 30 miles to dinner. The meal was totally overrated but I was proud that I could say no to booze for a night!

My husband bought about 4 cases of wine and I have to say I am disappointed that he did so because it's getting easier for me to say no to wine because it messes me up so much. I still crave vodka but the wine is a quick high that ruins the next day or so for me because I can't sleep when I drink it so I just don't really want any.

I notice that Ann and Any Beth have posted pictures of their cats. I will post photos of my babies later today...your cats are so cute and now I want you to see mine!

Thanks for your support and encouragement - it really means so much to me.

Napa or Bust

So today is the day that my husband and I head to Napa, California to celebrate our wedding anniversary. I am very nervous. I have managed not to drink all week and I am going to try not to drink anything when we arrive this evening. But we have 3 days of wine tastings planned and I am so nervous about drinking too much which will, in turn, ruin my chances of sleeping well and make me irritable and anxious. One good thing is that each day during our trip we have lunches or get-togethers planned with family or friends. That gives me an incentive to not drink anything at least until after we see our friends/family.

I don't really enjoy travel much anymore...the airports are nightmares and you never know if you will even get to your destination anymore. When I was in my 20s I was fortunate to be able to travel all around the world so I guess I kind of feel like I have done it and I would rather wait until travel is safer and easier. I am keeping my fingers crossed that all goes well during our travels and that our trip is relatively stress free.

I want to make sure that my husband has a good time...I am trying to keep my worries under control because he is so excited about this vacation. And if anyone deserves a great vacation it's my husband because he is a wonderful sweet person. So, wish us luck this weekend.

Gone But Not Forgotten

Hi there Ann and AnyBeth and Tyra...I am still here. I have just been beyond busy and I was traveling. Sadly this does not mean that I haven't been drinking.

The week before last I didn't drink because I was swamped with work and was getting ready to take a trip to San Francisco to hang out with one of my best girlfriends from college. Her husband was out of town for the week and mine didn't mind if I went out to see her for a few days. She has 2 kids so it was pretty tame but we drank too much wine. There is almost no way to go to her house an not drink wine because they have a 3,000 bottle cellar and a small vineyard so wine is everywhere there. When I got back I guess the wine that was still in my system made me want more to drink. yada yada and I was hungover on Monday. I slept OK last night but every night before that was rough.

Now I am scrambling to make up for my hungover and not-really-working-time because next Thursday my husband is taking me to Napa Valley for our anniversary. I told him that I am nervous about a long weekend in wine country because I have come to the conclusion that wine really messes me up. What I mean is that when I drink more than a glass or two of wine I don't sleep...sometimes for a couple of days. If I have some vodka or a few beers the effect isn't the same. I don't really know what I am going to do out there. Maybe I can be the designated driver. But that isn't really realistic. I am depressed about the trip because I am afraid that over a period of days I will drink too much, be sleep deprived and cranky and it will take me at least a week to recover from the trip. Most people wouldn't get this stressed over a trip to wine country....

I wish that we weren't going on this trip so that I could try to stay sober for awhile and so I could keep going to the gym every day. Before I left on the trip my workouts were better than they are now because I am still recovering from my trip and drinking. I am really bummed about all this. I guess I will just do my best to muddle through the next couple of weeks and sort of start over after the anniversary trip.

Will try to post more over the next couple of weeks. I am so glad that Ann Without Wine is back!